I don't know whats wrong! I'm completely at a loose end on what to write about. This has never happened before! I must admit it's taking me a while to get used to the layout here as in finding people. I either come across fashion blogs, or photograpghy oriented blogs. I am not saying these are silly or what not but at the moment I have no interest in them. I have found a few blogs of interest to me. But the most frustrating thing is that I have no clue what to blog about myself!

I feel I am a little too wrapped up in the old times, in more ways than one. A stupid blog site for crying out loud! I've always thought I could adapt to new things but it's surprised me what an effect it's had going back to msn expecting the same old same old and its completely different. How stupid really? I think I was just looking forward to venting, where I could interact with many different people from many different ways of life. I dunno...........except I feel a lil silly

The other thing that has hit me hard recently is how quickly time has flew by! It feels like yesterday I had Nathan, my two year old, and it feels like the day before that Connor was born (my seven year old). But on the other hand it feels like I was 12 years old only the other year!? Do you know that feeling? I'm starting to feel I am losing the grasp on time you think you have when your a kid. I remember being 16 and thinking about the long life ahead. Now at 27 it does not feel like eleven years ago I was thinking that. Now! If you are an older reader reading this I know what your thinking, 'OMG! she's only 27 wait til she gets to my age......Blah, blah (respectively). I know this and being with a partner 25 years older than myself he thinks its hilarious when I say that. However, ELEVEN years IS a long time, which I am feeling has gone like a blink of an eye. Now  all i can gather is that this sort of thinking means I'm not completely happy with the path my life has taken. Not being a parent or whom my lover is, just what I have accomplished for myself.

Some months ago I began looking into developing my career prospects by going to university. I didn't do my gcses or a-levels, but have done numerous work-related courses and an nvq level 3 in business and administration. My lack of gcses was down to timing of exams and pubity! When the hormones strick a rebelous teenager, she doesn't give one shit for exams, even if she is a top student! Subsequently by the time I realised this would hender me in getting into the career I have always dreamed of but never dared thing I could do, I feel its too late. To get on a degree course leading to becoming a Social Worker I need gcses!! Advice needed: do you think I should go for my gcses? It costs money (and not cheap!) and time, whilst I work a demanding full time job and squeeze in my family?! I don't know I'm getting quite frustrated by it all ergh! I think I know its worth doing but with everything going on at the moment have I the time? I can't reduce my hours because we couldn't live otherwise (never mind the debts) and theres no chance in reducing the family lol!

I really need to make a decision and any suggestions would be delightful! But just a note I do know I need to shut up and give my head a wobble, so no need to suggest that lol.

Well consdidering I was experiencing 'blog block' I've managed to natter on a little more than expected! I will try to lighten up tomorrow and stop asking for worldly or wise advice lol.

Good night all

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